No-Good-Reason Blues

There really isn't any good reason for why I feel this way. Maybe it's because there's hardly any sunlight out now that it's starting to turn wintry. Perhaps it's because I only like my job a little bit. There's always the idea that having a stunted social life pulls a little, and having a relationship be long-distance really blows... Sigh. Woe is me.

Oh well. I'm going to start seeing a therapist soon. I don't really want to, but I've kind of decided that it's probably a good idea. I was really close to actually meeting with one two weeks ago, and then I had an appointment set with the same woman for tonight, actually, five or so minutes from now, but I had to cancel it for reasons I don't want to get into right now. I did call up the employee assistance office at work though, and some lady there is hopefully putting together a list of people on my insurance plan who will maybe be able to work with me. We've been playing phone tag a little and probably won't be able to get in touch until Monday, but I know I won't have too much time to think about it anyhow since I'm working Friday through Sunday.

So this is what I'm thinking about yesterday and today. Oh yeah, the blues and also the fact that I ate a hard roll last night and did something to the metal wire holding my two front top teeth together and now they've shifted dramatically and I made an appointment to see the orthodontist I haven't visited in five years so that maybe he can pull my pretty smile back together again.

Woe is me indeed. So in honor of all of the very tiny violins that must be playing for me right now, I'm posting this entry in the color blue for obvious albeit terribly cliche reasons. Whatever. If you don't like it, then you can suck it.