Weird Dreams

I've been having a bunch of really weird work dreams lately... like, it's not really new that I'm dreaming about work. But my most recent dreams have been really disturbing. The other day when I was visiting Matt, I had a terrible dream. In it, I went to work but after about an hour or so decided that I didn't want to be there taking care of people anymore, so I just left. I left the unit and then the building without telling anyone what I was doing or making arrangements for my patients to be taken care of. Then, after ten or eleven hours of shopping and hanging out, I called into the hospital to tell the oncoming nurse that I'd be a touch late and I'd give her report when I got in. The person who answered the phone told me she'd have to report me to our boss for having left and put the patients and the rest of the nurses in an unsafe position, and I said I knew she'd have to do that but I'd be telling our boss as well. I don't remember much more about it now, but I do remember that it upset me a lot. When I woke up I was kind of shaking, and I started crying. Matt had been sleeping, but my sobbing woke him up. He thought I was sad at first because I had to leave to go back home the next day. Heh. But then I told him all about what I'd been dreaming, and he listened and tried to comfort me and calm me down.

Then last night I dreamt that I was giving someone an insulin injection in her belly, only I forgot to take the needle out, and I looked off to the side to hear what somebody else was saying, and when I looked back at the patient, I realized I'd dragged the needle across her abdomen and had made a hairline gash through her flesh. I retracted the needle at that point, but just shrugged, covered the slash with a bandage and just walked away.

I've had other dreams, too... most of them involve me forgetting that I have a particular patient all day long and then realizing twelve hours later that I'd never given any care to that specific person. Or that I'd been giving care, but had been making such bad mistakes that I'd seriously injured the person or even caused him to have an early death. Quite disturbing, really.

Sigh. Must be more of my anxiety about work coming out... I hope it goes away soon.